Ive been thinking, a lot of people may not really notice my new found confidence. But hopefully people will be more inclined to talk to me because I will look more approachable and not be so shy.
I am so a happy how far I have come. I never knew I could feel so peaceful and hopeful.
I feel I can actually enjoy college like all the other kids.
I used to think everyone hated me, because I thought everyone was mean. I had this opinion because all the people who bullied me lead me to thinking everyone was cruel. I now realise all the people who bullied me since I’ve been in primary school and college were wrong about what they said, and I am ten times better than them, because they are just mean immoral people who enjoy making people feel upset. People like that are not worth crying over.
But I’ve noticed that there are actually a lot of really kind people, and not all people are out there to upset me. I feel as though I can stand up for myself now. The best advice I can give to anyone who is bullied is just to be yourself and never let people change you, and most of all stand up for yourself!
I also thought that no one was like me and I could not relate myself to anyone, but now know a lot of people in college who have also spend their lives being bullied and have also had friends leaving them. I’ve even found some people who have similar interests as me. It’s such a joy to feel I am like other people and not feel like an outsider. And apart from the few mean vain people, you know those types of people that you always get in school that don’t care about anyone else. There are a lot of good and kind people who I feel very lucky to know.
The main thing I have learnt is that is to let go of anger I had. I always felt so angry and held onto hatred towards the people who hurt me. I’ve learnt to let go. Because if we all held on to anger against people who hurt us, it would only generate more hate in the world.
I was thinking about the past, and I held onto a lot of anger against my father. He was nasty and very aggressive, especially to my mother; He treated my mother only as a house wife and not as a human being.
I hate men who only believe a woman’s role is in the kitchen is to make sandwiches. I greatly respect independent women.
As a young child back then I had an opion that all men were like my father, because a father is meant to be a role model. And as a child if you see your role models act in certain ways, you start to have a certain opion on people and the world around you.
I’m happy to say I know not all men are like my father, and there are many kind men out there.
It always brings a tear to my eye when I see any father hand in hand with their daughter; I wish that I could have had that feeling of love as a child. I do not even have one single family portrait photo, like many families have.
I wish I did. I wish my father loved me, like all fathers should, I hope he does.
I see my grandfather more as a father role model. When my parents decided to get a divorced, this was the day after my tenth birthday. I lived with my grandparents for three years because we were too poor to buy a house or flat.
I enjoyed living there. My grandmother was so kind and amazing at cooking. My grandfather is very caring and clever.
He used to read stories to me, and try to help teach me to read when I was a child because of my dyslexia I found it hard reading.
The only good memories I have of when my mother and father were married was when I used to go in the garden in our old house. It was a garden every child could possible want!
I loved the trees we had and the flowers. It was a huge garden! I really like nature I know a lot of teenagers don’t. But I do.
I really enjoy watching a TV show called “Spring Watch” It really gives you an insight to how the outside world is.
It is such a shame how greedy humans are, and we destroy wildlife for are own benefit.
I remember I used to watch outside my bedroom window as a child, we had this family of foxes that used to sometimes wonder in our garden from underneath the fence. We also had loads of birds that used to nest in the trees around where we live. I remember watching baby birds as they fledged and left the nest ready to fly free in the big world. It was so cute.
The biggest blessing I have had in my life is my Twin sister! She is awesome! I love being a twin. Me and my sister say things at the same time, it’s so funny! We even sometimes have similar thoughts; it is very strange but cool! I and my sister are writing books at the moment, we both want to be authors. It was my sister who got me into writing.
I never knew I could develop so much understanding and devotion to writing a book. The best thing my sister ever told me about writing is “An author has to always keep his or hers aware for every sight every smell and every sound must be understood.” My sister is so clever and she is so sweet too.
